Trying Again...

It has been almost three weeks since I sent off a letter of forgiveness to my estranged father.

I still haven't gotten a reply.

But I might have sent it to the wrong address.

So, I am going to send another one out to a more updated address I got from my sister who (unbeknownst to me) has been in letter contact with him since last year!

I have high hopes. She got some really nice sounding letters from him. Dare I say, letters that make me think he has changed from when I last knew him. However, it is easy to shine it on when you are hundreds of miles from meeting face to face. She lives in Alaska.

My dad and I live in the same state. Actually about forty minutes apart. A face to face meeting is more realistic for me than for my sister.

I went through a lot of heartache before I decided it was just time to let go of him. I don't want to have to go through that again. But without risk there are no rewards. I will however, be very careful to erect emotional barriers so as to protect my vulnerable heart. But it is hard to lay out boundaries for yourself when you want something so badly.

And I want a real relationship with my father...badly.

So, with a lot of hope and prayer, I send off a second letter.